Where Do I Start?

We'll call this "Healing Time"...

I am a little nervous about blogging, but my mind needs an outlet. My emotions are so contorted right now I am not sure who I am anymore. I know who I want to be...so I am hoping by the use of my blog...I can find her and be her.

My life has not been all bad, but most of my relationships have. They start out wonderful beyond explanation and then 6 months - a year poof...shit starts happening. I am not seeking a pity party, just pure honesty. I am the common denominator in every realtionship. People who are close to me say it is not my fault, but I am telling you it is...what am I doing? I am not sure. I hope that by blogging I might find that answer so I can correct it and have a "happily everafter" type relationship.

Okay so this is my first...it's short and sweet, but there will be more...much, much more...