Alrighty Then...
Okay...so I am weak ya'll...a little...LOL...
Monday night I call my bestfriend she's snoozing so I called her mother. She and I talked for about 2 hours and she gave me great advice. She told me the first thing I need to do is cease calling and emailing D*****. She said that if he hasn't called me in 2 weeks time it IS over and he has no feelings or desires to rekindle us...and at that time I hadn't talked to him for like 2 days already. I told her I could do that, and I agreed...I feel like if you care for someone you will not go longer than 2 weeks without contact. Anyway...I admit I am kinda weird...lastnight I lay in my bed...NOT sleeping (I have become an insomniac...I think)...anyways...I lay there praying to God, begging God to please bring my baby back...give me a sign...something...I mean just pathetic really. And then today...after 4 days...he calls. This was the conversation: Him - Hey how ya doin'? Me - I'm fine. Him - How is S****** (I had emailed him Saturday about the accident). Me - He's better. Him - How are the kids holding up? Me - They are good. Him - Alright...I was just checking in...I'm at work so I can't really talk... Me - Okay bye...(Click). Now what? Was that the sign I prayed and begged God for lastnight? Or am I thinking too much again? See this is ridiculous...I mean was that 2 minute conversation enough to consider myself "contacted" within the 2 weeks? I was thinking when she said give him 2 weeks that if he called it would at least consist of a conversation about us? Do I need to slow down? Am I asking for too much all at once? See there I go...thinking again...I think I need therapy...Hell I am driving myself crazy...this is a blog right? (In my best Jim Carrey/Mask voice...Somebody stop me!!!)
posted by Work In Progress @ 1/18/2005 01:43:00 PM
2 Comments:
*BIG HUG* girlie...i though my ex was my soul mate...and then...i found out he wasnt...and its hard to love like that and then try to get yourself back...ive layed in bed just like you, praying to God over a man...this too shall pass...it is a very painful thing to go through...have faith girlie, u will heal...and arent those short convos the worst? all u can do is replay them in you mind and analyze them...take care of yourself...
If you find yourself jumping through all types of hoops for him and he is not doing a damn thing, lovely, let him go. It's not worth it. I really believe people get hung up on a relationship going south because they don't see another prospective. I was with dude for a year almost and found myself over extending myself in the relationship. It wasn't until I noticed things messing up and also grabbing other attention that I was like fuck it. I'm doing me.
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